The Value Of a Bedroom

     For a couple year's now I've not had a bedroom. After a small life shake up I found myself living with my mom and sisters. Now this wasn't a problem with me having been staying with my father, girlfriend and an assortment of room mates that came and went rather quick. The only issue we had when I moved in with the girls was a small one; I didn't have a bedroom.

    No I had slept on couches for a long time. Both partying and in general when staying with friends. So I figured it would be no problem to sleep on the couch for a while and it wasn't. Now I had shared beds with people during this time so it wasn't like I missed a bed. I missed having a room. Having a space that was mine. 

     Having a room is something special. A place where one can escape from the world for a little while. That's personalized the way they want it and what is comfortable to them. It serves as a comfort zone be it wrapped up in the blankets in bed or at a desk pecking away on a keyboard. Not nearly as secluded today as it was in the past; with constant connections to the web via twitter and facebook. 

     Not having a room for so long led to me forgetting that sometimes you have to be alone with yourself. A place to face your problems in relative solitary. A place to be away from everything but still close enough by that if someone needs you you're there. 

Book Review- 'Invisible' by James Patterson

   I had never read a James Patterson book before. I remembered the rise of his book 'Maximum Ride' a few years ago. But even then never really took much interest in him or his books. Upon finishing a previous book how ever I needed one to replace it and seeing as how 'Invisible' serves as a stand alone book I figured it would be a good introduction to James Patterson as well.

   'Invisible' follows FBI researcher Emmy Dockery as she searches for a link between many crimes spanning the country. Except the crimes have a personal connection. The book is intresting in which it shows another seemingly inside view of how the FBI work cases and the effect it can have on its agents. As well as showing how people are in a general light.

    The story itself takes many twists and turns and has you not wanting to put it down. There is a sutale romance plot through the book that thankfully doesn't take away from the crime and action. Its almost like an episode of Criminal Minds in a book form. The ending will have your jaw dropping and wanting more.

   Over all if your a fan of crime novels or even the various TV shows on cable now days this is a must read. Its not a book you will get board of half way through, but you will be sad when it finally concludes. You'll be in for one hell of a ride.

Modern Disappearing Acts

      I do a lot of reading. Personally I love reading articles written by people who have been through things. Sites like  Thought Catalog or the OffBeat web series. One of my times of reading these articles I came across one that talked about losing people. It had struck a chord with me and left me thinking about it for a while.
         The article was specifically about people just disappearing from your life without a trace. Sadly I had gone through this with a very important person in my life. It was so disheartening to have someone just vanish from my life without a trace. I read the article and it resonated with me due to the fact I had gone through it. Sadly tho the article never mentioned what you would go through when the person who vanished randomly showed back up. As well in the modern age were so connected we usually have a way of finding some trace of the people who vanish but sometimes it does more harm than good.

        A few nights ago one of the people show back up. Having some one disappear you have to kind of accept the fact they are gone. That you may not know where they went or if they were okay but you had accept it and move on or it will tear you up. I had found a trace of the person who disappeared from my life and once they showed back up. I didn't know what to do, I literally had an anxiety attack. As much as I'm happy they are back something seems off. Having found traces of them it seems like there is something so different and foreign. I believe in the long run the traces we leave social media now only have some negative effects but also positive ones. The thing is that either way there's no way to end it now days.

       There was also someone else who vanished from my life years ago that interests me even more. Because all I have of them is a few photos and memories. I'm a good researcher, not anywhere near doing it for a living or getting any awards for it. So when someone vanishes usually I can find a trace of them and see where they are or what they are doing but this one I can't. The most interesting part to me is the time frame in which I lost both people. Person 1 we'll call them Alice disappeared a couple years ago, I had known them for a few years, during the real rise of social media. Person 2 we'll call them Chad; I use these names a lot. I lost touch with Chad before the rise of social media and can't find a trace of them.

       In today's world losing people has become harder in a sense. Most of us have left a trace on social media that anyone we know now will always be able to find it. I believe that the long term effects of social media and our interconnected society will have some sort of outcome in the long run. It will be a subject that will be studied and looked into for years to come.

Well Hello

     Well after much thinking and debating the idea I've finally decided that I'm going to start a blog. Now unfortunately this will not be a subject blog. It's not a food blog, nor a review blog, nor even a travel blog. This will be more of a journey blog. See I've had many idea's over the past few years. A few of which I have followed and some which I've sadly just let slip by. So near the beginning of 2016 I had a few events happened that have led me to a point where I've decided to try and press on with some of them.

      Here I'd like to give you a big of an over view of a few of the ideas I will be pursuing this year and a little about the reasoning behind them:

• Rave Wolfe Inc.

               This was a company I set up back in 2011 as a DBA (doing business as) under my father and his business. As a result of my parent's divorce I was effectively expelled from the shop I was doing the work in. This resulted in my closing of my Etsy page and a halt on all projects I had at the time. Over the past two years I've realized I've missed the work I was doing. I love to work with my hands and to build things. I always have. So having procured some of the machinery and tools needed I plan to return to work as soon as I can find a suitable area for me to set up shop, no pun intended.

• Team Zweihnder

                This is a venture into another world I am very passionate. Feel free to roll you're eyes I can see it coming. This was the idea of a gamer group for both Youtube and just for fun. It was originally started by me and two friends wanting to play games competitively at the start in the rise of such things. After a fall out with me and one of the founding members it was effectively ended. Recent partners have brought it back to light and with to help me press the matter having already set up a decent web presence on some sites such as Facebook and the Steam gaming service. While this will be mostly for fun in my opinion, I won't lie and admit to you that I hope there could be some money in it somehow.

• Vlogs

              Many times now have I tried vlogging. There are a few videos of which are on Youtube of my attempts. Often times I've recorded a ton of footage and never edited or shared it because I just didn't see it as something that was interesting or worth the time of others to watch. IT was during a recent panic attack I had while driving that I started Snapchating and I felt my anxiety lessen. Since which I have tried to regularly post snaps at least twice a day. Having a drop in anxiety problems since I'm planning to use it as a slow leeway into making me more comfortable in blogging and will start to forge into that. 

• Collage

                 I spent a lot of 2015 with all sorts of different people. I worked as a manager at a store I had only worked at for a year. Exposing to to people of very different back grounds that I was used to being around. From people who acted in such a way that disgusted me with humanity, to people who have encouraged me in more ways than they know. One of which after hearing many stories of their hardships, and a douse a bit of self loathing, led me many a realization. One of which was that I owe myself better. There are hundreds of things I can accomplish. Just because I have had hardships doesn't mean I can't find a way to over come and do something I want to do. This is why in the fall of this year I will be returning to Calhoun to get a degree.



       The past few years have led me to lose and learn a lot. I'd been put down by some of the people I looked up to and was lifted up by people who amazed me. They have pushed me to follow to try new things. To take risks to try things I thought was impossible. I'll never be able to thank them enough. But I hope as I take my risks they will continue to be there for me through all the ups and downs.